And yet after all you’ve been through
Somewhere deep down you did not give up
Hidden behind your phantom fears
Your treasures ache for your return
For the lie to be believed
The fear must be accepted
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Upon that fear you built your life
Goals, desires and expectations
All to appease the loss of your treasures
More and more lies
Less and less life
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Until one day
You opened the door
And stared into the unknown
Into the face of this phantom
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And inch by inch
You illuminated it’s depth
Embracing it’s nature with your light
And leaving behind what once was
To finally discover what you always had
Hidden inside
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They are and always will be yours to share
Without the need for approval
Without the fear of rejection
These gifts are yours to give
And only you can give them
This one definitely hit me right in the heart. For so long I thought I was doing what I was good at and it felt fulfilling in some ways at the time. "More and more lies, less and less life." But when I didn't do that anymore, I was forced to figure out what I was truly gifted to do and explore how to live that out and share it with the world. I had given up writing for a lot of years thinking it was something that perhaps I wasn't meant to do in a meaningful way. And even now sometimes I doubt myself and question why people would even want to read what I write. That phantom still wants to rear its ugly head from time to time. But God consistently reminds me that what I share has value in my own life and for others. More opportunities to share my gifts that I kept hidden for so long keep rising to the surface. And even though I sometimes feel unworthy, I want to remain open to possibility. It's not what I'm doing, but what God is doing in and through me. I don't want to squelch that in any way. Thanks, G, for another great piece of inspiration and for continuing to share your gifts with the world.
Wow G you really know how to touch people where they need it. I have literally been in tears since reading/hearing this poem. I have all my life been shut off from what would make me fulfilled to the extent that I really don't know that truth. I can recognise one place where I was excited about something until God told me it was my calling and because of my insecurities I rejected it and stopped being excited, because I looked at what I couldn't do instead of what God could do in and through me. After hearing this poem I suddenly realise that not only have I missed out but so have so many others because of my fears. Thankfully God is a forgiving God and I know He has forgiven me but I have you to thank because your poem has been the way for this to be revealed to me. Keep on doing what you are as you are a true inspiration.